I found a book at the used book store I frequent, and I bought it because it reminded me of this movie from my child hood. And that line about choosing whether to marry a lover, or marry a friend...
The desire to read the book was not only about the nostalgia for it, but the actual matter of the question, should I ever come across it in the future...
I started reading it last night, and I am marveling at how I am fraught with these new, troubling thoughts and emotions... It is almost frightening, and depressing that I am.
Yet, like a moth to a flame, I am drawn by its beauty,..and the flow of words that seem to stifle me, and reach my soul like some unwanted, pestilential sadness.
I hate it. But I can't wait to finish it...
And now, I feel have no choice but to do so.
Love,
S.
a birthday present from tito dodong and ta j
surprise cakes
cake partying!
i have no idea if its lucky or not, or just an ornament, but i do love a good sparkle here and there!
food photog from these two. :)
coffee art
i always try to say thank you
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happy!
When I was younger, a boy asked me if I loved him. He stood near me, his face was in between vulnerable and hopeful, but his voice was soft, and sincere.
Caught off guard, I could do nothing at the time, but shrug and turn away. In my nervousness, I think I had even chuckled. And then left.
Harsh?
Maybe not.
Two years before that, I had told him that I did. And he said, "Thank you." And eventually left.
And though it was sad (and equivalent to the pain of a thousand repeatedly breaking hearts in your body all at once)...I had thought that was that.
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So when he asked again, expecting a yes...I ran. Something in me had feared facing the pain of a thousand break hearts, and did not want to do so again so soon.
If it happened before, it might happen again.
Yet, I was sad...because the pain had not taught me the lesson it meant to teach me then. It was replaced with the fear that losing out on the good thing that might have been. Will I ever be brave enough to be that vulnerable again, though?
Sorry, Mum's feeling a bit emotional tonight after having listened to this song. The lesson learned is this...Timing is a very big factor in the already intricate matrix of relationships. Sometimes you have to be ready for the fact that you might not be on the same page with someone, and not even at the same pace. It's either you let it go, or you fix it. Put the factors together, and make the stars align. (Or not.) The hard thing there is that you can't do it alone...and for every choice you make, there will be consequences. I wish you the fortitude you need for when you get to this stage in your life, Sammy. You'll need it. (And I hope someday you'll say, "Bravery and a strong will? Oh, I got that from my Momma." ;-) Love, S.
They call this "the Stalker Song", and with good reason, as apparently the singer here is singing to his lady that he'll watch everything, and will be watching her, every breath she takes and all that.
Aside from the eye candy and kilig value of Robert Downey, Jr. singing in this little ditty, Sammy, my take-away point for this exercise is that you should really consider having a man who pays attention to all the little details you do...and remembers them. Someone who knows you enough to be able to anticipate what you need, and what's going to happen.
I like the clever metaphors in this song, but really, maybe I just want you to realize that there is a lot of truth in it. You want to be with someone who is mindful of your needs and will be there for you...and perhaps know you almost better than you know yourself.
(And if you love him back, you'll probably be the same way.)
When you pay someone attention, and give him (or her) your time while doing so, that makes them feel special as well. And then everybody's happy.
Love,
S.
I was having lunch with some guys (for work) a couple of days ago, and the conversation got to this sketch series by a couple of dudes named Key and Peele. :-)
It was entertaining to watch one of them talk about this funny sketch where a couple of guys would sass about how their partners were so annoying, and then they'd go, "So I said...Beeeetch..." and so on and so forth, but not without looking around first to check if their wives were around to hear them say it, otherwise, it would be hell. :-)
Haha... the lengths they go to just so they can "air out their complaints" and say the B word...
And so the dude (who was married) said, "This is so true...I can totally relate,", was totally almost convulsed in laughter whilst he told us about this new series discovery of his.
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That got me to thinking, if men really valued their women and didn't want them to be angry, would they really go to this extent not to or upset (or incense) her?
I actually think that that is sweet...haha. And quite a challenge for the male, who is supposedly "The Man of the house". I think it is hilarious, and actually really sweet... I mean, not to extent that my own husband would have his tail between his legs, or be henpecked, but I do think that letting the woman THINK she'll get her way all the time (and not upsetting her) is actually a very manly thing.
(Besides, I don't really like it when men are "frightened" in a relationship, relationships should be a fun and equal, happy union.)
Oh, Sammy, your daddy better not me dissing me in the future if he knows what's good for him....
(haha. just kidding.)
Love,
S.
My YouTube adventures brought me to this page, where it featured some of the top TV shows of the day (early 2000's). This is my favorite genre actually, I find the satirical funny song very entertaining.
Brian and Stewie are these characters from the show "The Family Guy", one of shows I would stop fiddling with the remote for whenever I see it showing on television. It's very funny, and the sarcasm is just well, wild.
Needless to say, I am very amused by it. :-)
There was this part where they made a little ditty about the Sopranos, and how it was going to...end, and it was just so clever, that I couldn't stop smiling for minutes on end. :-) Also, they panned the camera to Edie Falco and James Gandolfini, and I couldn't help but go "aww..." because let's face it, he's gone forever.
If it's still online in the future, Sammy, you really should click the link so you can see how Mum is such a sucker for the funny stuff.
Love,
S.
I don't pretend to be the expert of relationships...because, I haven't been in that many.
I'm pretty naive when it comes to things people say (or don't say) in relationships...
Some songs say certain things, or maybe they don't.
Maybe for some, "Won't go home without you" by Maroon 5 is the ultimate song choice, but...this is the ultimate song for...those things.
(I always associated Daylight with the loss of the comforting slumber of night...whatever ends that, would be sad.)
